Ok, so last night before the fun fires I was hanging out somewhere that had the California gov debates on TV. For those who don’t know me: I don’t like confrontations, I don’t like politics and I don’t feel that whoever is voted in to a seat of power “really” has the power to do what they claim they can (or take the blame for everything that goes wrong when they’re in that seat). The whole experience made me feel physically sick to my stomach.
First off, the canidates still do the whole personal attack thing. It’s never “I have had more experience in X due to A B and C, therefore I think my opinion on Y is valid” .. it always comes down to “you guys don’t know anything about Y”. This just reduces my opinions of the canidates to almost nothing. Along with this is the desire for most of these people to take credit for everything that they feel is “right” and then refuse to acknowledge that anyone else accomplished anything helpful.
Second item that annoyed me is the general “blame” factor. Did the last Gov really cause 100% of the problems he’s blamed for? Did the others running for office cause other problems with what they’ve been doing in their local governments before running for this position? Was it really THEIR fault or are they just the figurehead who gets to take credit for the wins and losses while other people really work and try the different options… and in reality, even if they are.. who says you can’t learn from your mistakes? If someone is at least TRYING things (with some level of research behind it) then they should be honored for that.
The other most annoying part of this is that everyone likes to come in with a budget, an agenda, a full plan that’s “theirs”.. what about either hiring outside agencies to handle some of this planning, or even proposing a budget without running for office, etc? Who says you 1) need to be in a position of “power” to actually change things or 2) that once in that position of power “you” have to be the person behind the ideas (or your “immediate staff”)…
So anyway, I walked out of the room on numerous occasions trying not to be ill. I once heard the saying that “the only people who are worthy of the position also are smart enough not to want it” .. and I agree.
Fire at Mission Beach.. good times. A crew of us went down to the beach last night. There really isn’t much to write about, the only stories to tell I’ll share in a second. This was really one of those times when just being with the right people, in the right place was fun by itself - no real “activities” to speak of. As for the stories.. police came by a few times to see if we were drinking - the first time 2 vehicles with a total of about 5 officers came by. They confronted us, made sure our area was alcohol-free and then sat over near our cars (and their vehicles) talking for the next 20min. The next set of police came by later on - right when Nick was down at the water with bottles and Krys wasn’t far behind. My concern on this was that they may think we were littering the bay or something with the bottles nick had.. and then Krys is calling for everyone to come down to the water. I was caught a bit off guard by this as going to the water when a police man approaches can’t look good - hehe, but all went well. Was just another alcohol check.
Good times..
Ok, last post before bed - I really need to sleep. The woman from my 1st post gets back on Wed after a few weeks away. I realize that I probably didn’t call/write as much as I could have, however I really didn’t feel (from this end) that it was really needed. I had fond thoughts while we were apart and am looking forward to her return. I think the knowledge of when she was comming home is what made it all “easy” from this end - there wasn’t a “seperation” feeling since there was a known reunion date… so having said that, I am sorry for not writing more, in retrospect I probably should have done more.
On the fun future side of things.. there’s the questions of when would be the right time to get the passport and go visit 
..or to see if my job is interested in picking up part of that bill.
Ok, since I’m in blog mode, I’ve got some quick writing to do before bed. I suck at saying things in person sometimes, but sometimes I need to get things off of my chest.. and so here we are.
I have a basic question.. with some background. I’ve got this nice group of friends here and I do care about their well-being. I try to be handy when needed, supportive, not cause too many problems (for those who know me I am like the anti-problem causer) and I like to have everything “at peace”.. but sometimes things come up that I feel I need to comment on and get involved in, even if they don’t “directly” affect me - ie: watching relationship issues or noticing a possible bad trend that you feel that you shouldn’t just “watch” continue. In this case the 2 items are related and I am unsure if I should get involved and say my piece, or just let things be since I know that the path being followed is not intentionally to cause problems, I just “feel” that it will.
So, do I get involved or keep my mouth shut and watch to see if things just work themselves out?
[UPDATED - 9/16/03 - 3:20am]
I was awakened by a phone call a moment ago regarding this post. Never was good with the whole completely subtle posting thing when I see something that I need to “discuss” with someone but not having the balls to just go “yo, I see a prob!” and talk to someone. Anyway, personally I feel a relief that I’m not seeing ghosts or making things up in my mind. What I was concerned about was valid afterall..so that’s fine for me and my piece of mind (part 1) but not necessarly fine for the part of me which is concerned about the others (part 2) - so now to see where things go from here. Personally I find part 2 easier to deal with - once there’s recognition of a possible problem, solutions can be found. (yes, I’m a freakin’ optimist.. don’t ya hate us?)
Just when I thought the blog thing might be a passing fad.. someone else gets roped in. I’ll refrain from linking though since the other party has stalkers who know to try to use me to get to them.. so with that said.. welcome to the blog world D. I completely can understand the vanity related posts and it’s good to see you online again. You really do seem happy in your posting even if the subjects sometimes aren’t the most “warm & fuzzy/feel good” subjects - obviously you like having a place to have an outlet again.. as we all do. Anyway, since this is my blog, I’ll go back to my own misc rants in a sec. Unfortunately I am left wondering what mishaps I happened to leave in the middle of tonight.. but unfortunately a 7:30am conference call in the morning required me to get home, blog and then sleep - hopefully it’s something simple that will pass.
Anyway, good to have you along D.