Ok, so the fires have moved out of my area and continue inland. My place is safe and sound, air quality was crap for a while and now with some nice winds and drizzle, even that is better.
The whole experience was strange. I had my mind setup to allow me to move on without problem if my place had burned. I could live in LA for a year while the place is being rebuilt. I had everything “important” ready to go.. and everything else I was ready to let go. I had even realized that in some ways things would be best if my condo had burnt down.. the rebuild would have made it even newer, the insurance check would have allowed me to replace many outdated things with new, better thought-out versions.. of course, that’s the selfish way to look at things since all of my neighbors would have probably not had the same view.
The other twist on things… I’m glad that nothing happened and that everything is getting back to normal. Would have probably been a pain to rebuild, etc not to mention the potential losses for everyone involved.
The lack of knowing what was going to happen was definately a problem for me - but life is getting back to normal now.
Yah, I think to a large extent I just try to go-with-the-flow on things like that. Wish it was as easy for me to transfer that thinking to other parts of my life, but natural disasters and the like typically don’t freak me out too much *shrug*
That’s not to say they don’t suck, but it’s more of a matter of fact sorta deal than something I sit and brood about.
That being said, glad NEITHER of our places were turned into fertilizer
October 30th, 2003, at 7:07 pm #